Lost ……a poem by Rackara
Where am I?
The sun sets, the waves crash
I awake to find a sight beyond my behest .
I linger with doubt ,
Company without.
I search , I listen ,
But I am alone and without my vixen.
How did I get here I wonder,
This is not a story without blunder.
The light dims as my eyes battle to see,
I cast my gaze unto the reaches but there is nothing but sea.
I wanted this , did I not?
But my mind now drowns in thought.
There is an unease within ,
No glory ,nor steam,
Without hope and no esteem,
Frightened I tell myself I am not,
But my heart beats to rhythm of feet.
The sand is thick,
I feel like I am running through a bog.
The light has faded,
The sands of time are jaded ,
I can go no further ,
I drop down and accept my fate in this new divide.
If there is a God then he favours me,
As a deep sleepy slumber takes me into thy embrace.
The dew glistens on my face,
I feel the grainy natural carpet beneath my chest,
The beach comes alive,
The gulls fly above high,
I am tourist in my body,
Cause this is not my reality.
Distaste is not my quota,
My stomach fills with hunger.
Maybe in pain,
I shall awake,
A few hours and be back in state.
It is often better to be in chains than to be free,
But chains of society have cast me aside.
Just as the die was cast,
The fate that I bereave is now in the past.
Nothing remains but the truth ,
A truth of acceptance that I am indeed lost.