Depression,…….part 1

After over 2 years of running away from writing about Depression, I finally came to peace with it today.

Depression refers to one’s feelings of dejection, despair, abandonment, feeling lost, feeling useless, feeling unwanted,……..name it. Many of us have been there. I have been there .

One evening while jogging with a friend , Joshua. we had good talk that resulted into talking about why I had started doing rare (unusual to me) things like gyming, Jogging, revived my blog and other stuffs. It had not hit me till then, and that’s when I realised that I had actually been down my recovery journey from depression. I had got back my love for all the things that made me me. The things I loved.

So I told him about how I had suffered depression before, how I had been referred for psychiatry review and been diagnosed with depression. I was started on treatment. First week on Amitriptylline, I couldn’t handle the side effects. I went back for change of medication, which I took for just a week and realised I wasn’t up for daily medication…..that wasn’t my portion . I stopped the meds, and I tried with all means possible to get out of this. Lyvia and Anita (God Bless you both for me) , these two girls saw me through every step, and I recovered. It took time . maybe 8 months to a year, but I can confidently say I recovered. 1 year down the road, and now I’m on the journey to being the best of myself.

Anita, Lyvia and I

Joshua’s expression and reaction was “but how can a girl like you get depressed”

Interestingly, Its the people that seem to have it all, the people that seem to be at the peak of their lives that end up in depression. You wake up one morning, responsibility is all around you, you are flying first class, dining with kings, siping fine wine dressing up in the best clothes possible, but all these things can’t seem to fill your heart…..they can’t. Think of all those renown celebrities who seem to have it all but end up being pronounced dead, cause being suicide. Nobody signs up for it. It just comes.
Depression is indeed a silent killer like many say. Its multisystemic……believe me when I say this. It surrounds you, engulfs you, and sometimes, you may fail to get a way out of it. You may lose yourself, you fail to see the meaning in life, you cant see the purpose of your existence . Those that can’t handle end up committing suicide.
Today’s lesson.
Everyone is struggling with something. Not many come out to say what it is. This someone could be you, your friend, your relative, your employer, your employee, your lecturer, your partner……yes , even your partner. So be kind to whoever you meet.
If you have a friend, or know someone who has progressively detached him or herself from what they once liked, try and reach out. Your touch, your words could heal a bleeding soul.
And to whoever is going through this, you are not alone. Find someone to tell about it and try as much to let your body heal. Get out of your house, go to your place of worship and pray. Take a nice walk home , listen to the birds sing, do charity , volunteer, let yourself see the reason to live, and the reason to appreciate the life you have. Go slow with yourself. Don’t push yourself to grab it all in a day. Pace yourself.
Together , let’s heal someone from depression .
If you want to reach out or share your story or have a coping mechanism or if you have any queations , I have a special email for this. Let’s share livebetter758@gmail.com
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